Thinking about quitting weed?I'm quitting weed. I'm 25 years old, and 7 years ago when I started I did not think I would be 25 and still smoking. Until recently I really have not noticed how weed was effecting me, but then things started to stick out to me. Although I do not regret smoking, I think it will be positive for me to stop and slightly change the direction of my life. This may not be a quit forever, because I do not view weed as bad at all , but I hope to stop for a while.
Yesterday I said I quit weed to myself, and now I am quitting again. I went through my car, my drawers, everything and came up with 4 bags with some shake corners. I packed it all and had previously decided I was going to write something about quitting. Now here I am. I would definitely call myself a pot smoker. Not everyone knows that, I am pretty undercover to many. They may know I do it here and there, but not like I do. All of my homies know. I got my smoking crew, and my real crew. They all know and many of them are down too. Ive had a few people tell me I should quit, or when are you going to quit? Never gave much about it, just kept up with my ways. My parents kind of know, but not really. I don't lie about it, just not much said.
Anyway I don't know where I am going with this right now. But I feel I need to quit. I need to stack some cash, I need to find a woman. I need to get something moving for real. I got a 4 year degree, a decent job, good friends and family. I feel happy. I think I am , but something is missing. And what that is I don't know? I feel like I need to completely clear my mind and that maybe weed is stopping me.
I don't let it stop me though. I am never (ever ) late to work. I am a hard worker, all bosses and co workers really like me, I play all sorts of sports or am constantly doing something. I can hang out with family or really anybody. I make enough money to do what I want to do right now. I pay my bills, go out (a lot) and really never feel broke. I am paying student loans and still setting some cash in the bank. I feel like I could get into and own a starter house and be fine moneywise. I feel like I could do a lot of things, but don't REALLY want to, just because I don't know what I wanna do. I am hoping that quitting weed helps me get a good idea of what I want. Not actually what I want. But what am I here for. I don't really want anything to crazy. I would be happy if I made a difference. Or right now I am living day to day. I make money, im done with school. All I really have to do is make money. I already do that and it feels like that's all I went to school for? To make money? Its too easy. I know it sounds nice to have luxurious things and money but once your gone , your gone. I dunno about high stress, long days, rush hour, hecticness. Your only here so long and then your gone, I just don't see the point. I think weed has allowed me to really appreciate the simple things in life. Nature, leisure, doing what you enjoy. I can see how people with families and kids feel the need to work 80 hour weeks high strung I dunno. Is it really worth it. Whats wrong with a small home, good friends, food, beer, vacations, 100% freedom except for working 40 hours a week. Maybe I am missing a girl. Maybe the weed cramps your style.
I am beginning to let my mind wander more than write . Back to quitting, I someday again may smoke. Hopefully I am able to clear my head and find out if I am happy where I am, or if I need to make some sort of move. What that move may be I don't know. I was labeled a pot smoker, before I actually was. Thanks to that I had nothing to do but live up to what people actually thought at the time. Why not? I like to smoke before doing a lot of things. It starts about thinking about doing something Nice day, feel the breeze, get a little high, really concentrate. You will look at the skyline against the trees and everything will look twice as nice. I like smoking and being outside. Looking around at nature and watching wildlife. I like to enjoy forests, lakes, camping, mountains, snowboarding. I like to be around people and talking. I like to laugh and analyze things. I like to wake and bake and just wake up in perfect chill mode while peacefully going to work, not really minding. While everyone else is doing their own thing. I like to blaze before I go to sleep. Lay in bed thinking and falling asleep so comfortable. Really you can function fine and smoke if you really want to. I still feel like I need to stop.
Sometimes I feel paranoid. Sometimes I feel light pressure on my temples, sometimes I feel like Im not living up to my full potential. Sometimes I feel like there is something missing.
Hopefully I bring with me the small things in life I have learned to enjoy and appreciate with the help of the ganga and will be humble and happy with what I have while I search for my purpose and identity.
mei fang
WAY too much to read. But I'm glad you're quitting?
stud daddy
keep smokin....your thinking to much dude
Samuel (James)
Good, but actions speak louder than words.
Wombat
The emptiness you are trying to fill is the lack of God in your life.
Sad Elf
If you were having major problems, I would recommend quitting, but if you can hold on to your good job and have a well rounded life as you say, why quit? Chances are, nothing is going to change that much except you will be more stressed out.
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